You should probably do something better with your time.
NB; This is part of my CB therapy. It’s one sided, it’s biased, it’s self pitying, it’s my mind and nothing else. If you happen to know me and happen to know anyone I allude to, then take it with a horse bag of salt. There’s so much left unsaid and so much probably overstated. That’s the nature of externalisation based writing therapy.
Continue reading Silver is not the colour of the lining (of my fuck-tonne of baggage)
I think the worst advice I have ever heard anyone give someone who is dealing with depression is “just smile.”
If only it was that easy.
However, there is something to be said for that simple statement. However, first let’s look at some basics.
It is far too easy to be caught in one or all of three traps that the darkened mind offers when when one deals with depression. Together they provide an environment that fosters further darkness, loneliness and personal destruction. There’s three things you need to be aware of:
- Raison d’etre Continue reading Dealing with the monsters inside the black pit
A dear friend of mine wrote to me to share my struggle with mortality with them as they were facing similar issues.
My response turned out to be as much a way to help myself as it was to help them, so I put it here (excluding personal references and identifiers) as a record for myself and in the hope that it may offer someone else a ray of light to guide their way.
Continue reading regarding mortality
Is it possible that my thanotophobia is induced by some form of existential depression?
Setting aside the obvious issues that the panic disorder and dysthemia throw up that require me to deal with, I’m talking about a basic resigned anger in relation to the realisation that the confrontation of basic issues of existance lead me to believe that it is all meaningless and thus resigned to an eternal, unresolvable depression at the sheer meaningless of life.
Continue reading Existential Depression