its not about “happy” or “sad” … it’s mostly about “meh” … from a deep hole.
stress triggers a lot more anxiety than you even imagined was possible
anxiety fucks with you and everything you do
Say hallo to my little sleeping disorder Insomnia
ooooh, you managed to fall asleep? here, have a nightmare where your pillow turns into a life threatening carnivorous animal and is about to chomp on your head.
Oh, did that give you a boost of unwanted adrenaline as you woke up screaming in a fight or flight ready state?
lack of sleep affects your brain’s chemical functionality – especially Serotonin and neuropeptides … which affect depression, anxiety and other mental illnesses … which affects your sleeping … which affects …
that reminds me – SNRIs? Yeah, they stop working after some time
coming off an SNRI drug is a two week tour of hell
going onto a new type of SNRI drug, yeop, a new two week tour of hell
Memory? Oh, you have it, but your brain decided to play portal with your synaptic pathways … good luck with that.
same thing with bursts of motivation …
I’d like to go back to my head devouring carnivorous pillow now, but it’s time for the alarm to sound so I can get ready for work.