Which is quite common.
Well, common for people with low self esteem.
So, my view of myself is extremely negative and erroneous.
When asked to write a letter about the positives I posses as I think others would – how they would see them, percieve them, believe them to be – I froze in panic. My heart clenched, my vision darkened.
I don’t even know how to start writing such a letter.
SGF is …
That’s it – that’s as far I can get.
It doesn’t matter what you tell me.
It doesn’t matter what I know or can rationalise.
All I feel is lies and empty words whenever I go to write anything down.
I can feel a level of disembodied depersonalisation occuring every time I try and it freaks me the fuck out.