After a very restless night, I don’t feel any better.
I can feel the turmoil under my skin, bubbling in my chest – just boiling away.
I still feel like that “baby in a blender” of emotions.
I try and turn everything off at work, no emotions, no thoughts – nothing.
I have to.
I need to be distracted.
So I end up focussing on stupid focus games to keep me from thinking or dwelling on any of it.